Unsent Letter

Hey, 'was' mine ☺ 

It's a little piece of me that left..... 

I'm sorry, for not being around when you need me 
I'm sorry, for being late reply your message 
I'm sorry, for not caring and understanding you enough 
I'm sorry, for being selfish 
I'm sorry, for mad at you and yelling sometimes
I'm sorry, for the memories you won't to remember 
I'm sorry, for blaming at you in last day I met you and throwed that flowers away 
Sorry 

Thank you for having me in your memories that you won't to remember. And of course it hurts to know I "was" yours. And it slowly tearing me down knew it you "were" mine. And all of this I realize, I miss you..too much.

I miss the time we laughed at each other 
I miss when you called me "sweetheart" with that sound 
I miss when you texted me at an hour after meet up said you miss me already 
I miss that hand which hugged me so tightly and calmed me down 
I miss that lips you used to kiss me 
I miss that fingers that fitted with mine 
I miss the way you smile and looking at me 
I miss when we stayed up late night just watching comedy series 
I miss when you looked me in the eye and said "you're the best, I love you"
How could be "the best" being "nothing"
I have to face it, you and me no more 

I miss you around 

Sorry for know it too late,

I love you, stupid boy 


-me

ini lagu buat seni musik ^^

Musim telah berganti Dan kau masih tak disini Berbicara tentang waktu Kita tak pernah bertemu Waktu terus berputar Kau dan aku, masih terlalu jauh Banyak perbedaan antara kita Tapi aku yakin padamu Jangan kau bicara jarak Jangan kita bicara benua Aku cinta padamu Tak peduli apa yang beda

it has to be you

Today, i wander in my memory
I’m passing around on the end of this way
You’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more
I’m losing my way again


I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more
that i want to see you and hold you more


It can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you
it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you


i cannot send you away one more time
i can’t live without you


it can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you
it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you


my bruised heart
is screaming to me to find you
where are you?
can’t you hear my voice?
to me…


if i live my life again
if i’m born over and over again
i can’t live without you for a day
You’re the one i will keep
you’re the one i will love
i’m…yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you

F.A.L.L.I.N.

jatuh cinta itu adalah suatu tahap menuju sesuatu arti dalam hidup
jatuh cinta itu bukan sesuatu yang besar atau pun sesuatu yang kecil
jatuh cinta tidaklah seluruhnya manis dan tidak juga selalu pahit
jatuh cinta tidak pernah tertebak, tidak pernah pula dapat ditolak
jatuh cinta sulit untuk dikatakan namun juga sulit untuk dipendam
jatuh cinta adalah bagaimana kita merasakan sesuatu yang berbeda dengan seseorang
jatuh cinta hanya dua rangkai kata namun berjuta arti
jatuh cinta dapat menjadi manis seperti permen namun dapat juga pahit layaknya kopi
jatuh cinta adalah dimana keadaan kamu menebak-nebak segala arti yang dia tunjukkan padamu
jatuh cinta itu menunggu, menunggu akan ada kesadaran darinya untuk memulai atau mengakhiri segalanya lebih dahulu
jatuh cinta itu bahagia, dimana kamu dibuat tersenyum hanya dengan setitik perlakuannya padamu
jatuh cinta itu api, perasaan menggebu yang menggelora dalam hati  saat dia bersama yang lain
jatuh cinta itu menyeramkan, karena di setiap mimpimu akan selalu hadir dirinya dan menghantui tidurmu
jatuh cinta itu tenang, tidak berbelit-belit namun mengalir
jatuh cinta itu sedih, apabila salah satu jalan terputus
tapi satu hal yang paling berarti, jatuh cinta adalah harapan.. karena di setiap hal yang kamu rasakan, kamu pikirkan, dan kamu inginkan harapan itu selalu ada
harapan itu...cinta

dan mungkin saja cinta itu kamu

-sfr-

this is for people who just lost somebody

losing someone isn't easy

losing means let them go

you know how hard it is or you just don't know

all those sweet memories rush trough your brain when the time is end

all those tears and pain beat your heart so fast and you don't even know how to spell h-u-r-t

it's not how hurt and how much

it's just a simple feeling that going to abstract that can't be describe

the time is up and you still can't let go

all things that you used to do with them, how much love, how much tears that you were shared together..

all the goodness and badness..

you can't change the past cause time still goes on

one thing that stay in your heart just regret

you need more time even just a second

believe me, you never expect bad things to happen but sometimes you just have to do before the regrets come

but i believe, i trust, and you also have to believe...God just knows the best :')

this is for my grandparents, you just have to know how much i love and miss you so much

and for my bestiest popeye who just lost her dad, i don't know what to say but im trying to express my condolence for you

i love you all :( big hug ({})

the new guy

dear you,
i knew from the start, we were not hold onto something
you really change
i dont know who's wrong or right
i dont know it's whether crazy or soul
you know, it's hard to do when i left a day not talking to you
i know someday i have to let you go
but this time is really not right
i try to let go but i'm so unprepared....i cant
i usually do my day with smile and that's all because of you
you're not here with me anymore.
a month, less 4 days, we trough doesn't give something to you?
but the memories rushed trough my brain
how we used to locating where the place that we were in
how you used to call me with that name
how you used your way to treat me right
how you used to say always
how we were being bad and silly
how you used to say all the "good night"
how you used to say all the "good morning"
how you used to care
now, everything is changing but i still feel the same 
feels like one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door
am i messed up and let you go?
and all I can do now just stare at the phone, but you still haven't called
i feel so cold, cant feel nothing at all
memories still memories
flashback again when we used to do all the things that we trough
you make me lost my way
where i have to stay
you know i've wasted half the time just to see you
no, im not expect something more than "how we used to" i did not mean to become "us" or "our"
i miss you
there are no words that could describe how i miss you
but i miss you since you've change, since you've gone
i miss you everyday

with all the pain and smile

-sfr-    

this time

Ran into you yesterday

Memories rushed through my brain

it started to hit me

now you're not with me

I realized I made a mistake

I thought I needed some space

But I just let love go to waste

It's so crystal clear now

that I need your here now

I gotta get you back today

This time I want it all

This time I want it all

Showing you all the cards

giving you all my heart

This time I'll take the chance

This time I'll be your man

I can be all you need

This time it's all of me.

I hit the bar everynight

Looking to score a good time

It's not like I planned it

I'm left empty handed

'Cause im still alone in my mind

Now what will it take to feel right

Can I come see you tonight?

Is there someone new now?

What can I do now?

'Cause I need you back by my side.

This time I want it all

This time I want it all

Showing you all the cards

giving you all my heart

This time I'll take the chance

This time I'll be your man

I can be all you need

This time its all in me.

Last time I wasn't sure

This time I will give you more

I'm more mature

I'll show you

Last time I didn't know

I messed up and let you go

I need you

don't say no.

Lying alone in this room

All that is missing is you

pick up the phone

Won't you come home?

This time I want it all

This time I want it all

Showing you all the cards

giving you all my heart

This time I'll take the chance

This time I'll be your man

I can be all you need

This time it's all of me.