the new guy

dear you,
i knew from the start, we were not hold onto something
you really change
i dont know who's wrong or right
i dont know it's whether crazy or soul
you know, it's hard to do when i left a day not talking to you
i know someday i have to let you go
but this time is really not right
i try to let go but i'm so unprepared....i cant
i usually do my day with smile and that's all because of you
you're not here with me anymore.
a month, less 4 days, we trough doesn't give something to you?
but the memories rushed trough my brain
how we used to locating where the place that we were in
how you used to call me with that name
how you used your way to treat me right
how you used to say always
how we were being bad and silly
how you used to say all the "good night"
how you used to say all the "good morning"
how you used to care
now, everything is changing but i still feel the same 
feels like one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door
am i messed up and let you go?
and all I can do now just stare at the phone, but you still haven't called
i feel so cold, cant feel nothing at all
memories still memories
flashback again when we used to do all the things that we trough
you make me lost my way
where i have to stay
you know i've wasted half the time just to see you
no, im not expect something more than "how we used to" i did not mean to become "us" or "our"
i miss you
there are no words that could describe how i miss you
but i miss you since you've change, since you've gone
i miss you everyday

with all the pain and smile

-sfr-