you

you, behind your back, i felt something uncontrolled feelings.
you got that attitude that i always adore
you got that smell that i love
you got that eyes that i love to see
you got that skin that i love to touch
i dont know
you are not my first
i've been falling i've been burned i've been hurt before
i hate you so much
you make me feel some ridiculous feeling again that i always afraid to feel for a long time
you are a jerk!
i dont know watching you laughed with someone just made me thought "how could you"
no, im not jealous. of course not.
i miss our scenes when you got me like this
i miss your voice when you talked to me
sometimes you just turn into my world with your light
and then go away leave me in darkness with no reasons
my hand shaking right now when writing this 
i talk about you dude
how could you make me blaming my self
i realized that im fallin in a rush
i hate this feeling