it has to be you

Today, i wander in my memory
I’m passing around on the end of this way
You’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more
I’m losing my way again


I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more
that i want to see you and hold you more


It can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you
it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you


i cannot send you away one more time
i can’t live without you


it can’t be if it’s not you
i can’t be without you
it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
yes because i’m just in love with you


my bruised heart
is screaming to me to find you
where are you?
can’t you hear my voice?
to me…


if i live my life again
if i’m born over and over again
i can’t live without you for a day
You’re the one i will keep
you’re the one i will love
i’m…yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you

F.A.L.L.I.N.

jatuh cinta itu adalah suatu tahap menuju sesuatu arti dalam hidup
jatuh cinta itu bukan sesuatu yang besar atau pun sesuatu yang kecil
jatuh cinta tidaklah seluruhnya manis dan tidak juga selalu pahit
jatuh cinta tidak pernah tertebak, tidak pernah pula dapat ditolak
jatuh cinta sulit untuk dikatakan namun juga sulit untuk dipendam
jatuh cinta adalah bagaimana kita merasakan sesuatu yang berbeda dengan seseorang
jatuh cinta hanya dua rangkai kata namun berjuta arti
jatuh cinta dapat menjadi manis seperti permen namun dapat juga pahit layaknya kopi
jatuh cinta adalah dimana keadaan kamu menebak-nebak segala arti yang dia tunjukkan padamu
jatuh cinta itu menunggu, menunggu akan ada kesadaran darinya untuk memulai atau mengakhiri segalanya lebih dahulu
jatuh cinta itu bahagia, dimana kamu dibuat tersenyum hanya dengan setitik perlakuannya padamu
jatuh cinta itu api, perasaan menggebu yang menggelora dalam hati  saat dia bersama yang lain
jatuh cinta itu menyeramkan, karena di setiap mimpimu akan selalu hadir dirinya dan menghantui tidurmu
jatuh cinta itu tenang, tidak berbelit-belit namun mengalir
jatuh cinta itu sedih, apabila salah satu jalan terputus
tapi satu hal yang paling berarti, jatuh cinta adalah harapan.. karena di setiap hal yang kamu rasakan, kamu pikirkan, dan kamu inginkan harapan itu selalu ada
harapan itu...cinta

dan mungkin saja cinta itu kamu

-sfr-

this is for people who just lost somebody

losing someone isn't easy

losing means let them go

you know how hard it is or you just don't know

all those sweet memories rush trough your brain when the time is end

all those tears and pain beat your heart so fast and you don't even know how to spell h-u-r-t

it's not how hurt and how much

it's just a simple feeling that going to abstract that can't be describe

the time is up and you still can't let go

all things that you used to do with them, how much love, how much tears that you were shared together..

all the goodness and badness..

you can't change the past cause time still goes on

one thing that stay in your heart just regret

you need more time even just a second

believe me, you never expect bad things to happen but sometimes you just have to do before the regrets come

but i believe, i trust, and you also have to believe...God just knows the best :')

this is for my grandparents, you just have to know how much i love and miss you so much

and for my bestiest popeye who just lost her dad, i don't know what to say but im trying to express my condolence for you

i love you all :( big hug ({})

the new guy

dear you,
i knew from the start, we were not hold onto something
you really change
i dont know who's wrong or right
i dont know it's whether crazy or soul
you know, it's hard to do when i left a day not talking to you
i know someday i have to let you go
but this time is really not right
i try to let go but i'm so unprepared....i cant
i usually do my day with smile and that's all because of you
you're not here with me anymore.
a month, less 4 days, we trough doesn't give something to you?
but the memories rushed trough my brain
how we used to locating where the place that we were in
how you used to call me with that name
how you used your way to treat me right
how you used to say always
how we were being bad and silly
how you used to say all the "good night"
how you used to say all the "good morning"
how you used to care
now, everything is changing but i still feel the same 
feels like one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door
am i messed up and let you go?
and all I can do now just stare at the phone, but you still haven't called
i feel so cold, cant feel nothing at all
memories still memories
flashback again when we used to do all the things that we trough
you make me lost my way
where i have to stay
you know i've wasted half the time just to see you
no, im not expect something more than "how we used to" i did not mean to become "us" or "our"
i miss you
there are no words that could describe how i miss you
but i miss you since you've change, since you've gone
i miss you everyday

with all the pain and smile

-sfr-    

this time

Ran into you yesterday

Memories rushed through my brain

it started to hit me

now you're not with me

I realized I made a mistake

I thought I needed some space

But I just let love go to waste

It's so crystal clear now

that I need your here now

I gotta get you back today

This time I want it all

This time I want it all

Showing you all the cards

giving you all my heart

This time I'll take the chance

This time I'll be your man

I can be all you need

This time it's all of me.

I hit the bar everynight

Looking to score a good time

It's not like I planned it

I'm left empty handed

'Cause im still alone in my mind

Now what will it take to feel right

Can I come see you tonight?

Is there someone new now?

What can I do now?

'Cause I need you back by my side.

This time I want it all

This time I want it all

Showing you all the cards

giving you all my heart

This time I'll take the chance

This time I'll be your man

I can be all you need

This time its all in me.

Last time I wasn't sure

This time I will give you more

I'm more mature

I'll show you

Last time I didn't know

I messed up and let you go

I need you

don't say no.

Lying alone in this room

All that is missing is you

pick up the phone

Won't you come home?

This time I want it all

This time I want it all

Showing you all the cards

giving you all my heart

This time I'll take the chance

This time I'll be your man

I can be all you need

This time it's all of me.

Forever & Always

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye

And we caught onto something

I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?

'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down

We almost never speak

I don't feel welcome anymore

Baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called

And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all

And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh, and it rains in your bedroom

Everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?

Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide

Like a scared little boy

I looked into your eyes

Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's everything coming down to nothing

Here's to silence that cuts me to the core

Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called

And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all

And you flashback to when he said forever and always

Oh, and it rains in your bedroom

Everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'cause I was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up

Did you forget everything

Back up, baby, back up

Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom

Everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called

And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all

And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom

Everything is wrong

It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone

'cause I was there when you said forever and always

You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always

all alone

you know the feeling that you just dont know what to do?
you know that everything is changed and you just can doing nothing
you know when you start to speak but just silence out from your lips
you know when you want to scream but all you've got is smile
you know when all the things that you did can't get enough for everything
you know when you smile deep inside you just wanna cry
you know when you really want to cry but there is no one to hold your tears up
you know when you really need a hug but there's no one there understands
you know when all the things that you said became so more useless
you know the heart broken need some new heart to fix
you know the feeling when you really need a help but you don't know whats wrong
you know when you really tired of this damn life but you still holding on
you know when everything disappears slowly but you cant keep them
you know when you are lost you don't know how to get back
you know when you really wanna free but you just cant let go
you know when you wanna see but that's all black
you know what you feel but can't tell even to yourself
you know all these feeling..
all these breaking mind and soul
i don't know what lives bring
i don't know how to hold on for something i don't really understand about
i'm lost in a world of strangers
i'm alone with no one to trust
i'm desperately need someone who could take away my fear and sorrow, who the one will bring me back to the light

two

i met a guy. new guy. this guy really unforgettable. he made me smile in a simple ways that i never expected to be happy with. this guy made me forget all the things that i've been trough alone. i was chasing "the old guy" but he was unemotional. i've told you about him on the last posts. really i love and want "the old guy" but there's no more i can do. well, this new guy really cute, honestly kind, romantic, mean, but he made my day. he also love to left me. well, i understood. he has something to do for himself. but actually i still can't change my heart. i still fell in to "the old guy". he is really my mood-breaker. when "the new guy" went, "the old guy" just appeared in my mind and life again! and that's always make me feel gloomy. you know, i really don't know what to do. fall for someone easy for anyone, but for me it's really uncomfortable feelings and also hurt. God, please, i'm begging you. give me one of them, to make me smile and take care of me. i need 'him'. God please lemme feel what beautiful memories in the past or maybe more than the past. i really want, need, so desperately wish and hope. please... 

you and i - secondhand serenade

I'm feeling distracted,

And likewise attracted,

To all the things that you let me know,

All the things that you can't let go.

You're waiting for friction,

This empty addiction

Is forcing me to intervene.

Let's break out of this scene.

I know, I'm not alone.

I'm not the only one who is broken.

And I know I'll never let you go.

I could watch the world pass by,

Just as long as it's you and I, you and I.

I watch you take over.

I'll give you this offer:

Take my hand and we'll run away,

Leave behind our past to stay.

Decaying 'til it's rotten.

A we'll have long forgotten

The memories that will haunt your heart.

Let's tear this town apart.

I know, I'm not alone.

I'm not the only one who is broken.

And I know I'll never let you go.

I could watch the world pass by,

Just as long as it's you and I, you and I.

We watch the world go by,

But if it's you and I

Then we will never die,

No we can never die

I know, I'm not alone.

I'm not the only one who is broken.

And I know I'll never let you go.

I could watch the world pass by,

Just as long as it's you and I, you and I.

distance - seccondhand serenade

I'm driving down the highway

Cold and dark, dead

(It's deceiving)

It's deceiving

And miles and miles pass by

And I'm alone

My eyes feel like they're bleeding

But I'm just crying

Is this what I ask for?

Is this what I ask for?

I hate myself when I'm away from you

I swear I'm sorry

Please don't hate me too

And I don't know if my heart will make It through

I swear I'm sorry

Please don't hate me too

I don't suppose you heard me

Call your name, girl

If you say louder,

Then I'll scream louder

The cities in between us block the way

They make it harder

But I'll scream louder

Is this what I ask for?

Is this what I ask for?

I hate myself when I'm away from you

I swear I'm sorry

Please don't hate me too

And I don't know if my heart will make

It through

I swear I'm sorry

Please don't hate me too

(Don't hate me)

Don't fail now

Hold on to hope

Cause I'm yours

I'm coming home to you soon

(I'm coming home)

Cause the road is very worn

And It's begging me to come back

(To You)

I hate myself when I'm away from you

I swear I'm sorry

(I'm sorry)

Please don't hate me too

(I'm coming home)

Don't hate me too

Please don't hate me too

him again

i sat behind you again few days ago. i tried to make a conversation but you were noddin your head. you smile with your right face. you told me your favorite food. you made my day after i was lost my mood because of you. but in the end i lost it again. i told you i wanna go to australia then you changed ur name with australia's flag. sweet. we were discussing about something about you and i just can't control myself. i asked her name, and your straighten face still did same. no changed. i wondered and felt guilty. but you were doing fine. last day, i was mad. uncontrolled. i was yelling at you, i was mad at you. and you just left me for make me better. i dont know. that was like that or you just tired and go and yelling behind my back. i'm jealous with everything you did with "someone" why you never gave me that chance. i promise i'll do better. i want you so badly, and this feeling just getting harder and stronger. if you can't, tell me how can i free. set me free. lemme fly away. but how?

diffferent

here what they said. but that's really who i am and i have to be proud cause i just live once, just one and only person like me. and thi is me :)

oooo

gue lagi suka lagu ini deh

adera-lebih indah

saat ku tenggelam dalam sendu
waktupun enggan untuk berlalu
ku berjanji tuk menutup pintu hatiku
entah untuk siapapun itu
semakin ku lihat masa lalu
semakin hatiku tak menentu
tetapi satu sinar terangi jiwaku
saat ku melihat senyummu

dan kau hadir merubah segalanya
menjadi lebih indah
kau bawa cintaku setinggi angkasa
membuatku merasa sempurna
dan membuatku utuh tuk menjalani hidup
berdua denganmu selama-lamanya
kaulah yang terbaik untukku

kini ku ingin hentikan waktu
bila kau berada di dekatku
bunga cinta bermekaran dalam jiwaku
kan ku petik satu untukmu

dan kau hadir merubah segalanya
menjadi lebih indah
kau bawa cintaku setinggi angkasa
membuatku merasa sempurna
dan membuatku utuh tuk menjalani hidup
berdua denganmu selama-lamanya 

kaulah yang terbaik untukku

ku percayakan seluruh hatiku padamu
kasihku satu janjiku kaulah yang terakhir bagiku

dan kau hadir merubah segalanya
menjadi lebih indah
kau bawa cintaku setinggi angkasa
membuatku merasa sempurna
dan membuatku utuh tuk menjalani hidup
berdua denganmu selama-lamanya 

buat yg belom tau liat aja disini

adera-lebih indah  :)

cerita cinta - mario teguh

Detak jantung terus berlantun, langkah kaki tetap terpadu
Dalam lembaran penuh warna kehidupan angan yang terpendam kan terwujud
Cita-cita yang tinggi kan tergapai dengan usaha serta keriangan dan kesungguhan
Itulah arti dari mencintai diri sendiri

Jika kita mencintai seseorang, kita akan senantiasa mendoakannya
Walaupun dia tidak berada di sisi kita
Tuhan memberikan kita dua buah kaki untuk berjalan
Dua tangan untuk memegang
Dua telinga untuk mendengar
Dan dua mata untuk melihat
Tetapi mengapa Tuhan hanya menganugerahkan sekeping hati kepada kita?
Karena Tuhan telah memberikan sekeping hati lagi kepada seseorang untuk kita mencarinya
Itulah cinta…

Jangan sesekali mengucapkan selamat tinggal jika kita masih mau mencoba
Jangan sesekali menyerah jika kita masih merasa sanggup
Jangan sesekali mengatakan kita tidak mencintainya lagi jika kita masih tidak dapat melupakan
Cinta datang kepada orang yang masih mempunyai harapan
Walaupun mereka telah dikecewakan
Kepada mereka yang masih percaya
Walaupun mereka telah dikhianati
Kepada mereka yang masih ingin mencintai
Walaupun mereka telah disakiti sebelumnya dan
Kepada mereka yang mempunyai keberanian dan keyakinan untuk membangun kembali kepercayaan
Jangan sampai kita menyimpan kata-kata cinta kepada orang yang tersayang
Hingga dia meninggal dunia dan akhirnya kita terpaksa mencatat kata-kata cinta itu pada pusara
Sebaiknya ucapkanlah kata-kata cinta yang tersimpan di benak kita
Sekarang selagi ada hayatnya
Mungkin Tuhan menginginkan kita bertemu dan bercinta dengan orang yang salah
Sebelum bertemu dengan orang yang tepat

Kita harus mengerti bagaimana berterima kasih atas karunia tersebut
Cinta dapat mengubah pahit menjadi manis
Debu menjadi emas
Keruh menjadi bening
Sakit menjadi sembuh
Penjara menjadi telaga
Derita menjadi nikmat
Dan kemarahan menjadi rahmat

Sungguh menyakitkan mencintai seseorang yang tidak mencintai kita
Tetapi lebih menyakitkan adalah mencintai seseorang dan kita tidak pernah memiliki keberanian untuk menyatakan cinta itu kepadanya
Seandainya kita ingin mencintai atau memiliki hati seseorang
Ibarat kata seperti memetik sekuntum mawar merah
Kadangkala kita mencium harum mawar tersebut
Tetapi adakalanya kita merasakan disaat duri mawar itu menusuk jari
Hal yang menyedihkan dalam hidup
Adalah ketika kita bertemu seseorang yang sangat berarti bagi kita
Hanya untuk menemukan bahwa pada akhirnya menjadi tidak berarti
Dan kita harus membiarkannya pergi

Kadangkala kita tidak menghargai orang yang mencintai kita sepenuh hati
Sehingga kita kehilangannya
Pada saat itu tiada guna penyesalan karena perginya tanpa berkata lagi
Cintailah seseorang itu atas dasar “siapa dia sekarang”
Dan bukan “siapa dia sebelumnya”
Kisah silam tidak perlu diungkit lagi
Sekiranya kita benar-benar mencintainya setulus hati

Hati-hati dengan cinta
Karena cinta juga dapat membuat orang sehat menjadi sakit
Orang gemuk menjadi kurus
Orang normal menjadi gila
Orang kaya menjadi miskin
Raja menjadi budak
Jika cintanya itu disambut oleh para pecinta palsu
Kemungkinan apa yang kita sayangi atau cintai
Tersimpan keburukan didalamnya
Dan kemungkinan apa yang kita benci
Tersimpan kebaikan didalamnya

Cinta kepada harta artinya bakhil
Cinta kepada perempuan artinya alam
Cinta kepada diri sendiri artinya bijaksana
Cinta kepada mati artinya hidup
Dan cinta kepada Tuhan artinya takwa

Lemparkanlah seseorang yang bahagia dalam bercinta ke dalam laut
Pasti ia akan membawa seekor ikan
Lemparkanlah pula seorang yang gagal dalam bercinta ke dalam segudang roti
Pasti ia akan mati kelaparan

Seandainya kita dapat berbicara dalam semua bahasa manusia dan alam
Tetapi tidak mempunyai perasaan cinta dan kasih
Dirimu tak ubah seperti gong yang bergaung atau sekedar cangkang yang bergemerincing
Cinta adalah keabadian dan kenangan adalah hal yang terindah
Dalam cinta yang pernah dimiliki
Siapapun pandai menghayati cinta
Tapi tak seorangpun pandai menilai cinta
Karena cinta bukanlah sesuatu wujud yang bisa dilihat oleh kasat mata
Sebaliknya cinta hanya dapat dirasakan melalui hati dan perasaan
Cinta mampu melunakkan besi, menghancurkan batu, membangkitkan yang mati dan kehidupan padanya
Serta membuat budak menjadi pemimpin
Itulah dasarnya cinta…

Cinta sebenarnya adalah membiarkan orang yang kita cintai menjadi dirinya sendiri
Dan tidak merubahnya seperti gambaran yang kita inginkan
Jika tidak, kita hanya mencintai pantulan diri kita sendiri yang kita temukan dari dalam dirinya
Kita tidak akan pernah tahu bila kita akan jatuh cinta
Namun apabila sampai saatnya itu raihlah dengan kedua tanganmu
Dan jangan biarkan dia pergi dengan sejuta rasa tanda tanya dihatinya

Cinta bukanlah kata yang murah dan lumrah
Tetapi cinta adalah anugerah Tuhan yang indah dan suci jika manusia dapat melihat dan menilai kesucian
Bercinta memang mudah
Untuk dicintai juga memang mudah
Tapi untuk dicintai oleh orang yang kita cintai itulah yang sukar diperoleh
Jika saja kehadiran cinta sekedar untuk mengecewakan
Lebih baik cinta itu tak pernah hadir
Karena cinta sesuatu yang membawa keindahan dan kebahagiaan didalamnya

Cinta itu seperti kupu-kupu
Tambah dikejar tambah lari
Tapi kalau dibiarkan terbang dia akan datang disaat kita tidak mengharapkan
Cinta dapat membuatmu bahagia
Tapi sering juga menjadi sedih
Tapi cinta baru berharga kalau diberikan kepada seseorang yang menghargainya
Jadi janganlah terburu-buru dan pilih yang terbaik
Cinta bukan bagaimana menjadi pasangan yang sempurna bagi seseorang
Tapi bagaimana menemukan seseorang yang dapat membantu menjadi dirimu sendiri
Jangan pernah bilang “I Love You” kalau kita tidak pernah peduli
Jangan pernah membicarakan perasaan yang tidak pernah ada
Jangan pernah menyentuh hidup seseorang kalau hal itu untuk menghancurkan hatinya
Jangan pernah menatap matanya kalau semua yang dilakukan kita hanya untuk berbohong
Hal paling kejam yang seseorang lakukan kepada orang lain
Adalah membiarkannya jatuh cinta
Sementara kita tidak meneriab untuk menangkapnya
Cinta bukan “ini salah kamu” tapi “maafkan aku”
Bukan “kamu dimana sih” tapi “aku disini”
Bukan “gimana sih kamu” tapi “aku ngerti ko”
Bukan “coba kamu ngga kayak gini” tapi “aku cinta kamu seperti kamu apa adanya

Aktivitas yang paling benar bukan diukur berdasarkan berapa lama kita sudah bersama
Maupun berapa sering kita bersama
Tapi apakah selama kita bersama kita selalu saling mengisi satu sama lain dan saling membuat hidup yang berkualitas
Kesedihan dan kerinduan hanya terasa selama yang kita inginkan
Dan menyayat sedalam yang kita izinkan
Yang berat bukan bagaimana cara mengulangi kesedihan dan kerinduan itu
Tapi bagaimana cara belajar darinya
Cara jatuh cinta
Jatuh tapi jangan terhuyung-huyung
Konsisten tapi jangan memaksa
Berbagi dan jangan bersikap tidak adil
Mengerti dan cobalah untuk tidak banyak menuntut
Sedih tapi jangan pernah simpan kesedihan itu
Memang sakit melihat orang yang kita cintai sedang berbahagia dengan orang lain
Tapi lebih sakit lagi kalau orang yang kita cintai itu tidak berbahagia bersama kita


Cinta akan menyakitkan ketika kita berpisah dengan seseorang
Lebih menyakitkan apabila kita dilupakan oleh kekasih
Tapi cinta akan lebih menyakitkan lagi apabila seseorang yang kita sayangi tidak tahu apa yang sesungguhnya kita rasakan
Yang paling menyedihkan dalam hidup ini adalah menemukan seseorang dan jatuh cinta
Hanya untuk menemukan bahwa dia bukan untuk kita
Dan kita sudah menghabiskan waktu yang banyak untuk orang yang tidak pernah menghargainya
Kalau dia berkata “tidak”
Maka ia tidak akan pernah berkata “ya” setahun lagi ataupun 10 tahun lagi
Biarkan dia pergi…

Cinta adalah semangat
Cinta adalah kepercayaan
Cinta adalah energi yang tidak bisa dimusnahkan
Ia hanya bisa berubah bentuk
Cinta memang tak harus memiliki
Karena mencintai berarti memberi tak pernah kuminta

awesome

you know when you are sad just be awesome cause you are incredible :)
be who you are cause only one person that same like you rite? ;)

unspoken

hey boy,
i dont know where i should start talking about you. yeah i just decided to letting you go but this feeling just taking control -_- i want you. really. i mean it. i want you so much as i could love you. it's hard to say no. hard to refuse. but there's always no way for us :") lemme falling in love again give me that chance. just make me happy with your smile, how you laugh, how you use that voice to talk to me. yeah i dont expect more than that. cause i know, im the only one who feels this sh*t :)


im sorry boy,
im sorry to think about you too much
sorry for being rude because of un-important jealousy
sorry for expect too much
sorry for waiting you
sorry for being unkind
sorry for missing you
sorry for loving you
sorry for much care
sorry for cant help it
sorry for not brave enough to start everything
sorry for all those pain that i feel alone
sorry for wishing you too much
everything just my fault ok? dont be feel guilty, k? oh yeah you're not even there and you're not really care :)


thanks!
thanks for being cute and sweet
thanks for the "-_-"
thanks for ruin my day
thanks for the way how you make my day after you ruin my day
thanks for making me laugh
thanks for appear in my dreams
thanks for the recent updates
thanks for the way you call my name
thanks for being care a little
thanks for that eyes
thanks for that attitude
thanks for that ride
thanks for that smell
thanks for that simply way you do that make me smile
thanks for make me falling in love again
thanks for everything :')


you know sometimes things better left unspoken. keep loving, much hearts and much hugs :) ({}) <3
-sfr-

lnly

my friend said i need someone who cares about me.
yea i feel a little lonely. at school i met many people then we laughed together but thats all. i dont have one person that understand me at all. one person who will listening at me. one person who will stand up for me. one person that always by my side. i already have one kind like that, i love her so much. but the distance....so far away.
i need someone that i could share everything, someone near.. not just playing together but when i tell my stories they're just seem it like "having fun"

He Was

I know there is no way for us. I saw how his face turned like -_- then :D when I called her name. I know I need much time to make him understand, need so much patience. But please we can still be friend. He was starring at me but I got nothing to do. His eye I dunno I didn't understand. Sometimes he just showed that he cared about me but I knew that was nothing :) he was smiling at me and looking at me in the eye but he always do the same thing to another. He was yelling at me! I never love the way he yell. But everything just going fine. He was so annoying but I liked it when me and him started to joke around. I love the way he laugh. When he tired he was took a place that lonely from anyone else then playing his phone or just quite or sleeping. I don't know what is going on when he start to be alone with himself. I always thought that he was angry or something but he was totally fine! My friend said that I'm fallin with someone who has autism. Sometimes things just happened without our plan rite? Maybe he was not that person that I should meet right now. Maybe me and him need another chance to prepare all the things. Hey boy goodluck for you, and goodluck for me too. Im sorry for all the things I didn't mean to hurt you. I know it is just too much but I just want to clear my mind and soul. Thanks for make me in love again. Thanks for everything. I heart you. "if she is happy, I'm happy either. Just that simple way" -Autumn In Paris

you

you, behind your back, i felt something uncontrolled feelings.
you got that attitude that i always adore
you got that smell that i love
you got that eyes that i love to see
you got that skin that i love to touch
i dont know
you are not my first
i've been falling i've been burned i've been hurt before
i hate you so much
you make me feel some ridiculous feeling again that i always afraid to feel for a long time
you are a jerk!
i dont know watching you laughed with someone just made me thought "how could you"
no, im not jealous. of course not.
i miss our scenes when you got me like this
i miss your voice when you talked to me
sometimes you just turn into my world with your light
and then go away leave me in darkness with no reasons
my hand shaking right now when writing this 
i talk about you dude
how could you make me blaming my self
i realized that im fallin in a rush
i hate this feeling

signing book raditya dika

hello, kemaren tanggal 8 januari 2012 gue pergi ke pim udah niat banget lah ya mau nonton talkshow radityadika dan sampe akhirnya terwujud biarpun si abang datengnya telat dan menurut gue signing book kali ini gak seru cyiiin soalnya cuma dia dateng tandatangan foto terus udah.... YAUDAH..... YAUDAHHHH...YAUDAAAAAH.... dia gak pake ngomong apa-apa kaya waktu pertama gue dateng :(
oke tapi karena ada shara jd so far so good deh. tp shara nya bete gitu gara-gara nunggu radit nya.
ohiya here it is

segini dulu ya ceritanya byebye :*

happy new year

hallo udah lama ya gak nulis blog..
ok kita udah masuk ke tahun 2012 dan gosip-gosip tentang 2012 muncul gitu aja dan meluas, gak usah dipikirin lah guys kita masih punya Tuhan kan :)
terus masuk di 2012 ini sebenernya ada bete nya ada baiknya ada serunya
pertama betenya karena kita harus ninggalin kenangan di 2011 dan keep moving on
baiknya adalah di tahun yg baru semoga ada peluang-peluang baru yang menunggu kita, contoh ya yg pensiun tahun ini berarti banyak orang yg punya kesempatan buat dapat pekerjaan :D
serunya kita bisa nikmatin tahun yg baru dengan semangat yg baru dan harus banget jadi pribadi yg lebih baik lagi

LET'S ROCK 2012 *\☺/*